I wish... Wish that it wasn't so! That what I know was bull shit That many start to get it That baby's were not mutilated And our names not incorporated I wish... That doctors wouldn't needle us With poisons that are ridiculous And people would understand...
The road of life is weaves in ebbs and flows of creation and destruction. I take and honour both with a sense of awe. Creation exists because destruction exists. Without the latter, we are not given a gift of knowing and offered a deeper wisdom to forge the destiny of fulfilling our purpose.
Generally, I am a forge ahead girl. Give me a task that has a sense of purpose, and I will do it and do it well. I adore creation and on the nights I sleep the deepest are the days I get things done. That is my signal to a creative day and a job well done. When I left Magical Forest One in 2016, it was a conscious choice to withdraw from that creation for many reasons. The official dialogue was “I met a man”. But the man was only one a catalyst on a long list of reasons for a changing of the guards…without and within. It was time to slow down. It was time to take stock and re think the purpose of the earth work. It was time to say “no” to many things in my circle. It was time to stop.
During the past two years after leaving Magical Forest Two, I have been met with many challenges arising out of the catalytic explosive spark that destroys for creation. I have held onto an sadness that rose as an anger towards the true story for me leaving that space. And, this was a good thing the creation of Magical Forest rose from that sadness. I needed to admit my own anger.
And, in the past two years, many difficult and yet amazing things have happened. The continuation of my ancestral line set a new leaf in Miss Kaya Lluvia who was born into our crazy world in a most precious birth. At the same time, as a Mother, I have been experiencing another level of “let go” that ALL mothers experience with their children and this never ends even after the “children” become adults. I’ve fell very ill a few times feeling the weight of life in my physical, emotional and psychological body. At times I wondered if my body was giving up and questioned my sanity. I needed to stop. I was gifted with a live/dry blood microscope that sparked a renewed vigour from my past life as a healer. As fast as it came, the microscope was taken away leaving me questioning my views of who I allowed into my friendship circle. But the moment it left, true friends gathered to put a microscope back into my circle. I gave my hands to the lands around me… to bloom where I was planted and felt exhausted and almost uninterested. But, the space around grew in the toil and instructed me to catalogue and deepen a friendship with over 90 medicinal herbs. So, I worked hard to record, create alchemic tinctures and lay a foundation of education for medicines from garden. (www.seedsofwellness.life) My partner and I who are a powerhouse couple, began a process of mirroring our stuck-ness and areas manufactured from a culture of manipulation. We both have that stubborn streak so the process of removing the callouses was raw and painful at times.
All the above experiences were not easy each blasting a destruction energy that we generally try to avoid, resist and tuck away. I charged into each encounter and realized that at the age of 50, I have a lot of work to do…inner work. The creative potential required I work at this and this work is important to what is coming next…..and then the next came….
Today, with my partner, the Magical Forest Two is now a reality. Magical Forest One morphed from a experience of utter change in my life. In 2011 after a 21 year broken marriage, I left, entirely, everything I knew and all that I thought I knew. I found myself living in tent in a remote valley of Southern Ecuador and just working the soil feeling a sense of “what the hell is going on?”. It was from the ashes I rose and created. There was not much else I could go. It just grew and it grew because I just started the work the land. There were many flaws and inside the flaws many things were gifted. It was hard work and, in many ways, it left me exhausted. I often felt like I was on the verge of something so important, but I was tired. That was not the place or the space. It was meant only as a teaching ground. And, the dynamics of the characters of the valley Magical Forest one existed was a microcosm of dysfunctions of the world affairs. Those in that valley who worked the land with our hands and without money all left. Perhaps this is a reality of our times?
So, the past two years have been a down-time, inner work time, precious painful time…a time of allowing the destructive flow be to let go of that which won’t serve the greater good. And, that is why Magical Forest Two is rising .. the seed has cracked the concrete and is sprouted.
My mind and hearts eyes are clear this time. There is no doing without knowing where this is going. I have a great partner with me whose talents and capabilities perfectly jigsaw that which I am not good with and I match reciprocally. At this point, we are alone in this creation. And, that is perfect. We both desired to gather with others and we both realize the future is not ours to predict. Our intimacy at this point is with the land is this is the first friendship to cultivate. Our need for circle is complete.
I’ve spent some time sitting with the new land and feeling it. My hands have started the process of labouring and they feel it and it feels so good. It is a very, very good foundation. The land is in Kaya’s Lluvia name paying forward all our labour and efforts. Lluvia means rain…so we work the space for the waters first. And, we choose to NOT let the systems we live in have power over our beings. We knew this land would be ours for a long time, but we did not work it until a sense of security was in place. The land waited and helped us with the process as Spirit provided gifts and offerings from supportive friends to make this happen.
I am amazed really. i am in wonder deeply
I am grateful for the destruction of all that which does not work
I am humbled by life guiding us to remember who we are
I am in love with my circle of friendship and, most importantly, my partner.
I am not perfect
I am still learning
I give my hands, my Spirit and my being to the new land of Magical Forest Two
I kiss the ground knowing it embraces me back
I feel hallowed…and a sense of resurection
This is beautification in creation.
Let Magical Forest Two begin!!!!
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