A Twist of the Prodigal One

A Twist of the Prodigal One

A little twist on the Prodigal Son Story…maybe he didn’t leave..maybe it was the good brother who did????

When two brothers/sisters live together in a family and the one is negative and brutal, and the other one loving and compassionate, this situation may last for some time. The loving brother/sister may succumb to the bad deeds of his evil brother/sister and try to develop an understanding and tolerance for his behaviour.

However, in the long run the loving brother/sister will lose his/her spiritual propensity to evolve, because he/she will be occupied all the time in neutralizing the negative reactions of his brother/sister.

The only solution in such a situation is to separate the two.   That is a difficult path as it causes a sense of abandonment and rejection.

The dark one will have to live alone and will be confronted with his/her personal negativity, which he/she did not realize as long as he could transfer it to his loving other, who endured it with patience and sadness. During this time he/she has sincerely believed that this is how the world has always been arranged – of harmful doers and sheepish victims and that the harsh ones have all the rights to behave according to their heinous and miserable nature.

Staying alone with his/her own evil nature, the hard brother/sister will slowly begin to perceive that in order to avoid the destructive results of his/her negativity he/she will have to begin to behave like his other, whom he/she will be for the first time dearly missing.

The loving brother/sister will go to a new home at first broken-hearted.   There he/she will meet other loving brothers and sisters that have also fled from their difficult others. They will remember together what it was like to live among such dark entities and will enjoy, from the bottom of their hearts, the community of other loving entities. They will never look back in anger……they will transform the situation as a beautiful lesson.

…..Political correctness is the dictatorship of young, spiritually underdeveloped souls over the excellence of old, highly evolved souls….. every incarnated soul on earth has only one duty – to express his/her unlimited spiritual potential to the best of her/his divine powers against all social resistance, prejudices, and suppression that s/he may encounter throughout her/his incarnation, but without challenging or limiting the prospects of evolution of other entities even when this evolution may take for a long period of time onthe road of perdition, leading to a greater separation from All-That-Is…

….every incarnated entity is, first and foremost, the Supreme Creator of his own destiny. This attitude, I see and hope,  is becoming more prevalent and more people realizing that they are unlimited creators of their reality and that no society or plane of existence can limit the scope of their individual spiritual aspirations.

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Mind & Matter in Collective Change

Mind & Matter in Collective Change

At this point in human history (herstory), we’ve come to a place where the lid is being blown off the insidious crimes of humanity.   The crimes have been going on forever, I suppose, at least since man has walked this earth and it might be the reason for the story of leaving the Garden of Eden.   But, for today, with the technology and information explosion we have a new way to share it…to learn, grow, discover and inform.   The power of the Gaia web of information is being used against us…and we are also using it for collective potential.

The “information” is an awareness.  However, the awareness will not be the fuel for change.  The fuel comes from the inner being.

One part of me says….get this people (see video below)..wake up and see this reality….the other part of me says, “my gosh the story us human’s weave” …. soap opera drama lovers…. we are!

Yes, I get this is happening and is important. Yes, I get it is a dream weaved from a collective too. It is so easy to say this is happening “out there” and not our responsibility. A weak thread in the process of evolution.  We are not the audience sitting watching this happen!  This is happening in the inner and outer.   We have work to do!
What it is to be human? One is to stand in two camps, one foot in each, on the one foot space/time, the everyday consensus reality, the matrix, call it what you will. Your other foot is in the inner world. Without both, we will always be in a dilemma folks!
We are all at a place where the two lands come together. You are the bridge between finite and infinite, between limits and limitlessness. You bring, if you choose, limitless and infinite love into a world….a world that is, indeed, starved for love. That inner world only has the borders, the governance and the results of your own make up…and that you have power over. Work it!
Hatred, arrogance, division and imbalance of the individual will NOT aid in the progress towards a great place for us to be, here, together…no matter what enfolds in this “plan to save the world”. Are you getting fed up with the bickering yet? What is your inner bickering? Might want to deal with that first!
It does not matter how well-intentioned you are, your good intention rises from the context of your conceptions – YOUR INNER WORLD …and this is useless in effecting change unless they are driven and guided by (and with) a cultivated wisdom. This needs to be extended from you (and me) as an individual to the collective. The only ways to truly do this is to get totally real in your personal world…do the inner work. If you don’t think you need any inner work, therein lies a problem! This isn’t happening just “out there”. The two sides need to meet, merge and become one for any lasting beautiful change. Stop the division!!!! Stop the stories that are NOT aiding the change.

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Fake Humans

Fake Humans

We are all born helpless and learn how survive the drama’s around us. Some of us learn survival is selfish. Perhaps the some is most. As the craziness of the world’s affairs increases, so does the craziness of the human condition. And, my theme of late is to back off, withdraw and let it dismantle itself as it surely will.

The time is ripe for the emptying and cleaning up so the adventure of living is not lost and left behind. We can not change the “what is”. The time is ripe for withdrawal and leaving behind all that is fake including people, culture and comfortable ways.

The central theme in the bumps of these challenging times is “let it be” and carry on. We need to back off! We need to recreate without the shenanigans of loud selfish people. We need to hand off that crap behind us and allow it to ferment on its’ own accord.

The increasing understanding of the “withdrawal” muse had me wondering if this was some personal neurosis…something about me that is perhaps a wee misguided or forsaken. But, every morning the sounds of new day song chiming between night and day, I hear it again….withdrawal seems to be the only logical, loving and wise choice.

I am highly intuitive and I have a way that appears, at times, to be cut, dry and to the point. I’ve never been good at hiding my feelings or keeping them to myself. This is because I can not and will not be phoney and have empathic points all over my body. I wear my emotions and feelings on my sleeve and I have a talent to “get” people more than they would like me too. Seriously, in the past, I have looked away as the sight of one’s darkness is revealed and I’ve been afraid they will see me seer-ing. I stumble to hide my gut instincts. What I have gathered is that most of us learn a way to be “phoney” and “pretend” (even the empath) that is not really healthy nor will it amount to any wise change and growth.

I contemplate the human condition(s) and watch how people act, react and respond to life and more and more I see slippery selfishness gone wild.

So, I am fed up with seeing this. I won’t be mean, but I won’t also put up a fake front either as I know it is the flip side of the phoney coin. I realize that way too many people can put up a fake front and we learn to be good at it. And, unfortunately the phoney’s are increasing.

Luckily I have “real” people in my life. However, there is a growing number of selfish humans that have a misfired “code” often using new age “spiritual” willy-nilly to rationalize their actions and doings. “I feel good” so this must be right; I will be generous in spirit only if you acknowledge me; I will show the world my good actions so that you see me as love but behind your back I will curse you. It wreaks pretentious muck and slams a noise of utter selfishness.

Human drama is confusing, to say the least. I know, full out, I have high standards in the art of human connections. The high standard can seems as a weakness, in many ways but it is not. For years I trusted most people and I assumed we all had this code of human kindness. The wake up for me is that is not true. It is truer that most people are selfish and really only care about themselves. It is truer that empathy and the empath are withdrawing from the crazy human ways and that is a good thing.

Am I being too pessimistic about humans? I don’t think so. The cultural manipulations and mind-programs have actually been designed towards this result.

Over the years as I came to realize this phoney noise. There have been times when I found myself in puddles of sadness and grief not really knowing why. I just witnessed too many encounters when I asked “how could humans be that way?” Sure, I get it, this is the victim in me crying foul. But, I am gaining my own wisdom in this playground and getting wiser to phoney’s and the victim is slowing fading away.

Walking away is the only solution to this human dilemma. All other ways just feed into the drama of destruction and continuation. Give this air space attention and it feeds into louder noise.

The ones who lack in the core values of human decency come in many shapes, sizes and with many hats. We all, to a certain degree, have selfish voices of inner noise. But, the ones who are destroying things in a devastating way have two things in common; they really just don’t care and they are really all about themselves.

Unfortunately, we are all become intimate with these types at some point and the after taste is difficult to swallow. As life travels deeper in time for me, I contemplate the fact that friendship with nature is far easier and happier than dealing with human beings. That thought rises as I discover most human beings don’t care…or if they do it is masked with “what is it in for me?” You can recognize a phoney in that if they have done a kind act, they expect and ask for acknowledgement. Acknowledgement is a good thing, in and of itself, but when the driving force of is the acknowledgement, it is not human kind.

I call these non-caring beings Phoney Human Beings (PHBs) and they are increasing in numbers to the extent that we can’t escape their ways and disastrous off shoots. What is the difference between someone who appears to have a selfish confidence and a narcissist? Not much, in my opinion. In the narcissist court we see the varying types ranging from arrogant, self-centred, opinionated, ruthless, hard, cold, callous, righteous, sociopath and the top of the cake, psychopath.

Friends don’t screw you! They back you up. I also play the game friends will sacrifice for each other. They’ll be there in times of need and extend themselves for the sake of the moral code of friendship. We learn in time that many friendships are false and this wake-up can be difficult.

The empath will often make excuses and gather reasons for the PHB’s selfish behaviour. That is the empath’s weakness. And, empaths are tested in this regard We all have moments when you become aware that those you trusted can not actually be.

Some serious PHBs will lie, steal and manipulate for their own shell fish needs and some even for fun. Some will just operate out of selfishness. That is how PHBs work. It is like ego nourishment so that they “feel” okay.

Being outed doesn’t matter to PHBs. They simply don’t care and will pretend they are “above” and feel very justified in themselves and their choices. Somehow they completely and unabashedly believe their own lies and continue in the same manner.

I do hold a compassion for PHBs. This is because I am an empath. They won’t change and, as much I as have in past tried, it is futile to attempt a change. The only way to truly remove the PHBs is to walk away.

If you haven’t already figured it out, PHBs are the new human thing that has been morph-rising and increasing in intensity with the top of the PHB pile being the psychopath.

From a scientific observation, they are border line personalities. Their brains actually work differently. Scientists are not sure if this is something they were born with or if it is the cause of a trauma at a young age. The waves of light that should transfer between the right and left hemispheres opening up our empathic potentials are dull or totally nonexistent. The right and left are not communicating. It is a mind game error. And, they learn how to “act” the game for their own benefit and survival and selfish fun. They learn how to act as “good” and “victim” so that their game is beneficial for their own purposes. It comes at different and varying degrees of dis-ease. The acute stage are those who are just self-ish and all about themselves. The chronic and degenerative stage is the psychopath.

I have read that full blow PHBs now amount to over 10% of the world’s population and will dehumanize and affect at least 50 people in their life-time. The world’s population now sits at a crazy 7.6 billion. Ten percent of that number is 76 million. Seventy Six million times 50 is 3,800,000,000 people affect by NIBOs. Holy Freaking Shit! We are not alone!

So, what can we do? Well, honestly, unless the “whole” is willing to notice and see it, there is nothing other than to be just aware. One good way to to remove yourself completely and stay away. When you discover a PHB in your intimate circle it is diffifcult…but quietly, unobtrusively and completely walk away.

If you don’t, at some point you will walk away wondering what the hell was all that about. When we become intimate with PHBs and enter that mind-fuck arena, you will at some point require personal re-wiring and healing. That basically means telling yourself over and over and over “you are okay” until, once again, you believe it. If you put up a fight, you will lose. You have to walk away and literally have nothing to do with them. You can’t help them. You have to lay down any desire for justice and fairness. You have to give up. Nothing you say or do is going to change the PHB. The best you can hope for is your dignity is in tact. Once again, the only true medicine to cure the world of PHBs is if everyone got it…and everyone said “no”.

Unfortunately, PHBs are truly another type of human thing that is increasing in population numbers. In fact, I suggest that in today’s corporate and political world, PHBs are the only ones that can achieve and surmount the successes of the cut-throat and don’t-give-a-shit hierarchies. An empath can’t step up that ladder…their values prevent it. This means that those who have any sense of care and consideration are not in positions of worldly power. Now, can you see the problem?

Is there hope? Is there something we can do? My thoughts on this at this particular time in mystory is we need to withdraw. It is in the leaving and exiting of the compassionate and empathic being from that PHB world that will cause a rediscovery of who we are and where we need to go. We can not fix it anymore. We can’t repair it. We can’t fight it. We just have to walk away cleanly, clearly and with grace.

There is hope in the withdrawal because eventually, they will destroy themselves. That is a calming karmic consolation.

I wish there was a magic serum for a PHB to drink that would rewire their brains for empathy. That would be wonderful. Maybe it is only karma that will deal with this!

Also, I am learning that when you find yourself in a state of complaining, it is best to walk away so the negative charge is annihilated and the mind micro chip disabled.

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For The Wyrd Ones

For The Wyrd Ones

For all the wyrd ones out there, hello!   The leap is much harder than the flying. This is one comrade sharing with you into the echo chamber of neurosis that somehow is a requirement for the survival of the human race at this particular time in history/herstory.

We are in very interesting times and the time lines of possibility have tentacle extensions in the duality of our potential existence. We could be on the verge of collapsing and destroying our human expressions into nothingness and we could also be on the cusp of a great awakening. What does that mean and what is next is always on my mind!

I have been on a muse on this apparent but precarious dilemma we are collectively experiencing for many years. It intrigues me how human’s respond, relate and repose their views, thoughts and emotions and what has caused the mess we are in. Some are numb. Some are crusty. Some lean into the air-faery spaces of expression. Some get angry, motivated and opinionated. Some just don’t care. Some have way too much power. We all have egos that are running rampant.

I tend to be a watcher. I watch people a lot. I am curious of what it is that creates, causes and constricts consciousness. So, my interests lie in the human expression factor..that little blip of awareness that becomes each one of us and how that fits into the glory of Nature. How does that work? And, what is this all about? I also tend to be an eclectic scientist but I break rules to discover new formulas and outcomes. I have a lot of failures. This applies to my love of kitchen and garden magic and the ways of expressing who I am as a human being. So, I get messy sometimes as the explosions create something not intended but totally appreciated (at least by me).

I do go to the deep…and like to stay there to feel the markers. Sometimes I suffocate but I always come up for air…gasping into this expression of Leisha. And then I realize there are a lot of games going on and a lot we have no fucking clue about. Although I resist and recoil from it, I am a CT (conspiracy theorist) but that has come from knowing that things are NOT right and not as we are told. What if we all got it all. I think that would be a very, very difficult realization and I am not sure we could survive it. There is lot we don’t know. There is a lot we miss. There is a lot hidden and removed from our understanding. And, most of it is intended. Is it even possible for our little minds to grasp it all? And, can we grasp it? I actually don’t think so! We’d be heart broken in cognitive dissonance running rampant. But, we can help each other in the reveals and realizations (real lies folks).

I feel I am a product of the new ways of the Nature desperately seeking to know the old ways of expressions which has been lost, removed and ignored. Actually most of those ways have been wiped away and hidden from our view. We have most definitely disconnected from our natural way of being. We have lost the art of self sufficiency, magic and most of us are dependent and relying on a “system” to contain and resolve for us. We are fearful too…we just don’t know how to take a those steps to be free and take back the power.

I am 50 and have a “story” that I’ve never met (and always sought) a crone elder whose tough and generous love could guide and corral me towards an authentic way of being. This has been lost. This is perhaps the story of my generation. We didn’t have the elders. The elders were stuck in the paradigm of civilized survival and forgot to learn the ancestors way. The depressions and the human industrialization clamped it’s hardened claws into their worlds and has made a complete mess all around. TV, technology, main stream media manipulation, raping the earth are the huge influence in our generational unfolding. My generation is caught in the middle. We found ourselves with no ancestral gifts and need to relearn how to be and become that for the generations after.

I suppose, though, in all honesty, I have always rebelled and rebuffed at what appeared to me to be ridiculous. I was raised in the Catholic faith but at some point came to realize it is a mockery of who we are! Corruption is crazy and we can’t agree to this any more! Participating IN IT is saying “I agree”. I can’t do that! And, we need to look at this as a group, as people!

Last year I became a Grand Mommy (my GM name is Naja). The year before that I was ordained in the Walking Ministry of Prayer with the Ministry of the Sacred Sciences (13 Grandmothers). I must say this was quite a eye opener into the psychology of being me and I have not grasped it yet. I have spent the last 7 years of my life “getting out” and breaking free of that which we think is sustainable culture and consciousness. What is my Ministry? I have no clue…and here I am looking, searching and being in that “lostness” expressing. So, maybe my ministry is “lost”? And, I don’t think I would want it any other way. I’ve been lost and broken, curious, contained, blown away and quite focussed on what it will take to rebuild and reclaim our personal right to “be”. I left abruptly and without reason a life of western modernization and literally lived outdoors for 4 years. I survived for a couple of years on $20 a week. I become land based with hardened and knobbly hands proving my determination. I’ve not bathed or washed for weeks on end often becoming quite wyld and crazy in dirt. I left a life of convenience to look for what I think is the lost art of being human. I now grow my own food and medicine. I now have a life that is different from the one lived in the western culture. I snub and avoid systems. I want to choose my life and in the system, you loose that ability. And, so I put my middle finger UP at those places we created. And, it does afford some sense of liberation. I am authentic is this. I am not perfect. I like to party and let loose. I smoke as an act of defiance and yet I know my health shit. Yes, we can be crazy crones! I don’t bitch and complain about the systems OR rely on them for my convenience or security. That is inauthentic and, sorry folks, this is a serious dilemma for many. Don’t bitch about the systems if you are using them in agreement.

All these topics and more will be revealed in my world of creative sharing. And, I found some things…the most important being that we have lost the art of being lost and expressing as natural beings.

And there are many circles and spirals happening. I want to tell stories about this. So, here I am. I am ready to express and share what I see even if the only one listening is me. It is, after all, only me I always hear, anyways, 24/7. Same with you! We all have this affliction.

My interest will be put into words. They include:

Herbs/ Plants/ Plant Spirits/ Plant Medicine
Magic, Mystery and Oracles
The Miracle of the Elements. The science and magic of the kitchen and garden and rediscovering the crazy and wyld art of alchemization.
Human Emotions
Paradigm Shifts
Mind Control and How to Break Free — most like how we are all stuck and sometimes have no clue!
Living as Nature without fear or removing the romantic notions of what that means.
Gentle and Soft Anarchism (how to take back your rights)
Creative Expressions of the Human Being without fear!
The World of Micro (the smallest worlds) (I use a microscope)
Debunking and Deprogramming from ALL systems that CONTAIN and CONSTRICT our personal expressions (religions, political, medical, governments)
Free-ing, escaping and getting out from underneath the Matrix
The little world of Leisha…my personal drama into the folds and dirty spaces of living
So, I am new to this medium of expression but have felt a deep and desirous need to put things “out”. I feel very passionately that the change of the outer world is only going to happen in the inner world. We are, together, in a precarious position and that is reflected in the current world affairs. We can assist each other and walk this path together only if we are authentic and deciding the path of grace and wisdom. It means change. We are afraid of change. We want comfort. We will argue ourselves green that things are not right but we don’t have to change. Integrity is hard. We may disagree with each other and challenge each other but if we can’t speak our truth, we are stuck. And, stuck is exactly where the powers that be wish us to be! I say screw that!

I am not always right…and each day I change my mind often, but I am open to learning and rewiring that which is not workable anymore. I will call out shit! I will cry a lot! I will bitch, love, scream and whisper into this world gone mad.

I like to write. I use made up words and coddlebonk expressions. I try to edit but don’t always like to follow those rules. I may rant and rage but I work it out. My name is Leisha!

Appreciate the claps as they give me clues that the vacuum is not empty and is like a medicine of the virtual potential that is not a human virus of destruction. Gratitude for the shares so that words can be as powerful shared as they are just samples and sounds of the words of creation. In vibration to be the way forward where-ever it may lead us . Humbly and gracefully!

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