Facing FEAR

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Fear, it is the great awakener!    We tend to coil from it…but what if we stood a solid ground in the face of fear?

To be alive at this time means to become a witness, willing or unwilling, to the loosening of the web of nature as well as the unraveling of the fabric of culture. It demands our maturity.  It asks us to face the fear!

 
When faced with difficulties, a child will often run the side of a parent looking for the place of least tension and greatest comfort/security. We learn to handle the threats as we grow. Maturity is a person’s ability to withstand and even understand the tensions and challenges that come with growing up and facing the issues at hand (not hiding) square on. It is also taking responsibility for it all. Ownership (of self or anything else for that matter) is taking responsibility.
 
If mature means “to ripen,” not simply to take on responsibilities but to be exposed to the weather of life and become fully grown well-rounded….it comes with responsibility. In order to withstand the stress of life, a person must become who they truly are at their core seed and ripen into the unique individual they are intended to be from the very beginning fully responsible. So, if that seed is not growing, consider composting and setting a more fertilized container.
 
And, remember, creation didn’t happen…it is always happening.

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OKAY….. a rant…..

We have to do something… the world is run by criminals and we are arguing with our neighbours. We are being bombarded with shitty situations all over the world and most of them are aimed at annihilating us. .So many are waiting for something “out there” to save us! We are watching for the hidden war to be won. We have forgotten how much power we hold as ONE.

I think we have all been played and it is disgusting.

As I watch and wait for things to change (and seeking things that offer hope), I have been asking myself over and over “what is the solution?” Even if the criminal rogues are taken down, are we ensured more won’t take their seats? All around me I see way too many people who have no clue to what is happening and if you do have a deeper understanding, we are breathing silent breaths waiting, hoping, anxious…and still unsure! Recently, as I scope the posts of social media, I have become frustrated with the lethargy…the lack of deeper understanding of what is actual going on. Many continue to follow the narrative or if they get there is a narrative, continue to listen to it….and do nothing about it.

There is really only two sides to this battle… It is the people against the power. And, yes, it is good vs evil. In this light, shouldn’t we take up that “good” and act like it? Is that the Spiritual Battle? Think about this! The current display of global situations is all by design. AND, that power exists because we make it real … we comply. We don’t call the bull shit. One example is the main stream media (MSM)…they are NOT giving us the truth news…but people still tune in every night. WTF? Oh, you want to know what is going on so you can make your own determinations!? Insufferable! UGH! YOU ARE BEING MANIPULATED and your opinions are NOT your own.

If we back away, we take away their power!!!!!! The same power is a gift with our money! The same power exists in our choices and our intentions. The same power is granted when we say “no”…when we stop vaccinating our children and withdraw our children from the system that is abusive. The same power exists when we stop fighting with our neighbours that amounts to only bitch sessions that do not effect a change.

Personally, I have found myself going to “I don’t know what is going on?” Well, folks, I admit, that is how they got me! That is exactly what they intended. They have worked so hard to get me (us all) this point. What if I took a stand and said “I do know what is going on?” Would the trolls come after me? Would I be attacked and ridiculed? What if we all did it…together? Now, now, now….there is power in that thought/statement?

It is time to get serious!

How?

– Understand what is happening – it comes down to our freedom…..every ones freedom – we all in it.
– stop fighting with your neighbour
– Pay attention!
– Put down the “stuff” and pay attention to a bigger picture
– Get we are ALL being enslaved!
– Stand Up ~ Take a stand
– Change your world
– Stop being a pacifist
– Think for yourself…and get to the root problem
– Don’t give it the energy by watching and saying nothing….you are complying
– Understand how you have been manipulated – all of us…and cut that chord.
– Understand the power of the spoken word!
– Take up your power as a Spiritual warrior
– Say NO MORE and mean it…do something.
– no matter your beliefs, views or opinions on politics, religion we are all in this together.

AND

The hardest one for most of us…. stop believing that something OUT THERE in this world can save us. I say this over and over and over….the only way this is going to be healed is when we heal.

There is a lot to be optimistic about….a lot. And, when you plug into these “positives” and wake up…. what then? If you go to “it is all useless” you are a problem! Do you GET YOU HAVE POWER?

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One Voice

Today.....

Do you know what I love? I love being open and listening to the world. I love being open and listening to myself. I love being able to put puzzle pieces of particulates into place and see a new picture. I love assuming nothing is only rationale, logical and factual. I love watching how the bigger mind is operating. I love hearing and considering that which I did not think about or upon. I love being pushed to a place where I am in question and then seeing/discovering the morsel of truth. I love the mystical and the esoteric. It definitely explains a lot of things unexplainable in our world. I love entertaining bigger and bigger possibilities and then seeing it even bigger in wonder. I love the work (although that is really hard). I love practicing being gentle as I know I can be harsh. I love knowing when to walk away, when to go straight in and when to let it be. After all is said, all is done, all is considered, I love being able to return to the shire where the true living exists. Green and alive! Its’ simplicity emanates from a living in service to others…friendship, dedication and honour for the littleness that brightly smiles and sometimes cries. If there is one purpose for us all, it is this…service to others. Now, how are you being that….all you have to is ask yourself in your own private mind, where I am serving me? Hopefully you can acknowledge that program that is a wolf in sheep’s clothing.

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There is something that ties everything together!

For those that get, you will understand the dynamics of our times muddling the greater truths. We are all in the echo chamber that is expanding…stretching us into something new.

I want it and I don’t…that little space in between that stretches the mind in two. Both sides having a reasonable explanation for the realities that exists.

I get it and I don’t…always questioning, wondering, waiting for the confirmations and proof of reality that both and all are shuffling me towards a deeper understanding of a core space that holds, entirely both equally. This is where the awakening is going. For those that get it, you are forced to do something about it…if you don’t you, well, suck!

I get excited and apprehensive….emotions that like kissing both causations of the same physical responses. Emotions that, if aware, are heading in the same direction but attach different stories. Which story gives the highest potential….listen to that!

Both sides create all sides in circle…they are ripples of character each having a unique voice that is completely sensible from different angles. But, they are opposite and magnetize apart.

What if…what if we were about to learn and discover a truth, a reality, that tied everything together and blew everything apart? Are we ready for that? Few are! These truths will alter who we are and what we are! No one will escape the explosion of this knowledge that has existed always and always and forever. It has been used as magic, a weapon and a wand causing spells that fog time-space reality. The wake up is not just about “knowing” although “knowing” is the spell breaker. Wake up will torment you, torture you and tear it all a part. The fragments will scatter as everything inside and out.

What is happening that will change everything? What is connected to everything? It is there? Are you even a wee bit curious?

Are we resisting changes? Yes, many are! The rotational speed from inertia is delivering an energy at rates beyond the ability of an energy source…. collecting energy in a flywheel over time and then releasing it quickly, at rates that exceed the abilities of the energy source.

We are in the flywheel This scattering causes it all….nothing will escape.

I get it, want it, see it and I don’t. Fly wheel.

I Want to Live in Truth

I am sick to death of the illusions and lies we are forced to swallow day in and day out. All I want, is to live in truth. I want to deal with facts, with honesty, and with logic. I want to work with other people to find realistic solutions to the problems we face. I want to change the conditions of suffering because I believe it is infinitely possible to do so.

All of the barriers to our progress are artificial, and I want to obliterate them. We all deserve to live in a society which values self-determination, truth, and justice. Yet here we are, forced, through no fault of our own, to live in a reality which values compliance with the status quo, manufacturing of consent, and inequality. This imposed reality makes me want to crawl out of my skin. We are not made for this, these are not our natural values; we are made to live in truth and love.

When I think back, ten years ago, I didn’t feel under siege by propaganda and attempts to manipulate my reality. But, I realize now that it was still happening to me. Ten years ago I did not have a visceral reaction to reject falsity every time I read the paper, watched the news, or watched TV shows and movies. All of which became intolerable because I could tell they were lying or trying to propagandize me by glorifying the very apparatuses which make injustice possible (the judicial system, cops, the military, the government, the spy agencies, the war makers and imperialists).

“People are naturally curious animals, and they will seek out what they are ‘not allowed’ to see. Censorship works best if people are unaware that it is happening.” – Caitlin Johnstone 2018

Back then, I did not know everyone was lying to me. I was in my 30’s before I even heard the words “manufacturing consent.” I didn’t know anything about the power structures of our society and I had no real understanding of how government and law actually worked. I certainly had no idea that the history I had been taught about our country and its government… was partial truth at best. My ignorance back then was mind-numbing, which is exactly the intent of those who manufactured it.

Ten years ago I was asleep because the system I was born into put me to sleep. It did so to make me compliant and docile. I was never happy in this state, but I went along to keep a roof over my head and food in my belly, contorting myself to fit their corporate-friendly consumer mold. I didn’t know any other way, but I bitterly resented my assigned role. So, I began to revolt. At first, it was just in little ways, and then in much larger ones. I began to seek knowledge. I began to ask fundamental questions. I began to change my life in tangible ways. I began, to wake up.

Waking up isn’t about knowing there is something wrong, I always knew that. Waking up is about finding the truth and acting upon it, it’s about gaining and accepting information which shatters your attachment to the false reality you have been sold. It means tearing down your own ego, which was constructed of those lies, and rebuilding it from the ground up. It means sacrifice, pain, and work.

Rebuilding your own value system, your own understanding of history and reality is thankless work. No one will pay you to work on yourself, to raise your own consciousness, or to develop a healthy mental state of being. You must do this work as a labor of love, self-love actually. You must do this work knowing that being the most authentic and compassionate version of yourself is inherently a contribution to the overall wellbeing of humanity, whether you can measure the effect or not.

"A Just Eclosed Giant Swallowtail" by Corn Farmer ©2015 
“A Just Eclosed Giant Swallowtail” by Corn Farmer ©2015

There are only two responses to realizing we are all corporate slaves living in a form of corporate neofeudalism. Either, you stand up and fight or you roll over and die. There is no purgatory between truth and reality, you must accept what you have learned, and then decide what you’re going to do with that information.

Waking up is fucking hell, but it is necessary. That is what I’m trying to tell you. It is messy and traumatic. It is gut-wrenching and sob-inducing. It will break all bonds, and set you adrift. Finding your way back requires immense work on yourself, but it will also force you to rise to the occasion. It will put your back against the wall and either you come out fighting or you don’t. When you discover your own capacity to fight it fills you up with courage, hope, and ultimately a fierce determination. You emerge from the chrysalis remade.

This is a hard path to walk. Now that your eyes are wide open you begin to see everything differently. You begin to realize just how inundated people are with manipulations once they no longer slip into your mind unchallenged. You feel isolated because so many of the people you know are still asleep, and you cannot bear to play along.

There comes a point when you cannot bring yourself to engage in small talk anymore. When you no longer consume goods so you don’t care about the material shit everyone else is oohing and ahhing over, and when you are simply no longer willing to remain silent for the sake of someone’s comfort level. You are now the disruptor butterfly flittering through every social group you belong to, shattering illusions and causing conflict. You cannot help it, it’s who you are now and you cannot change no matter how many sleepwalking friends abandon you in disgust.

No, you are awake and you want more than anything to shout the truth from the rooftops. You no longer care what people think about your actions, your clothes, or some fake ass status in the commercial world. You are bursting with rage, and hope, and passion about the truths you have discovered. You want to change the world!

But, everyone around you is asleep and to them, you look like a raving lunatic. They still believe the lies they are told. It’s not their fault, but you are still right, so what do you do with that? How do you pick your battles when every one of them seems worth it? How do you leave someone you love to live an illusion… how do you leave anyone to live an illusion? More importantly, how do you show people you are not the raving lunatic, but instead they are and just don’t know it yet?

I don’t really have the answers to these questions; we all kind of need to find the answers for ourselves. I cannot tell anyone else how to navigate their own inner work, how to determine the right thing to do, or what strategy will work best for them. Self-determination is about each of us deciding those things on our own. We each choose what to believe and what actions we will take in response to the gained knowledge.

The one thing I do know is that we’ve all been lied to, in so many ways, and about so many things. These lies have divided us, and the truth will set us free. Free to unite. Free to collaboratively solve our problems.CLICK TO TWEETFree to blow the world away with the radical change we could accomplish together. Throughout recorded history, human beings have always sought to work in unity with each other for the common good. Our divisions are manufactured and then exploited and we must stop allowing this to happen.

So, cultivate understanding and compassion for your fellow victims of this falsity, this divide and conquer tactic. If you do, we might finally see our common enemy for who they are. A tiny cabal of rich people who purposefully made sure we remain ignorant and ripe for manipulation and control. We are the source of these plutocrats’ gravy trains, but only for as long as enough of us don’t know that we are.

It is not a lack of mutual goals and desires among people; it is the lack of truth and facts which divides us endlessly. It is an inability to gain consensus on even the most basic of things which cripples our ability to create change in society. If we can gain even a modest unity around an idea then we the people become unstoppable. That is why I want to live in truth… I want us to be unstoppable.

I don’t believe that allowing suffering, war, and an economy of death is who we are in our hearts. So, let us rise to meet this occasion. Let us unite around finding truth and solutions which benefit the human condition rather than profit lines. If we are successful we will shake the foundations of our rotting system until we have cleared enough space to build something new, something better, something for all of us.

“What we call our destiny is truly our character and that character can be altered. The knowledge that we are responsible for our actions and attitudes does not need to be discouraging, because it also means that we are free to change this destiny. One is not in bondage to the past, which has shaped our feelings, to race, inheritance, background. All this can be altered if we have the courage to examine how it formed us. We can alter the chemistry provided we have the courage to dissect the elements.”  ― Anais Nin, The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 1: 1931-1934

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Geoengineering is here!


From a Facebook Friend….Nicole Vettraino
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Please look at this diagram of some of the geoengineering outlines proposed… this diagram outlines several of the things they are playing god with, and notice the bottom right section of ENGINEERED ALGAE. Is it any coincidence this crap is now festering in so many places and that Exxon Mobile is making those bunk “we are eco conscious” commercials about how they are using it for their ‘biofuel’? This should connect some dots for some people I hope. Stop fucking with Mother Nature.

https://www.tcpalm.com/…/dep-st-lucie-river-alga…/864668002/

https://www.fox4now.com/…/algae-crisis-in-southwest-florida…

http://www.tampabay.com/…/rick-scott-issues-emergency-orde…/

https://www.facebook.com/groups/STOPGEOENGINEERING/permalink/1879833445398698/

 

 

 

 

 

Facing FEAR

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Claro!

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Welcome To My Daily Muse

Daily thoughts, contemplations, realizations and awakenings!   My journey of life with words!

One Voice

Today.....

I am in a moment of time where I feel I must have done something right…or the sufferings of the past are the lessons that drew out of me little good steps. It must have been for good purpose. This rises as I am present the little ways. There is tremendous wisdom is seeing the whole adventure that comprise of little steps. You take a farm girl out of her garden and pluck her into the world of culture and it is way too over whelming. I need to stay true to the little ways that I know. That is, truly, when the hero is called forth. If you go to the collective, you can get swept up by the forces of history. Life builds tension. Tension is good, but sometimes way too much and sets us off course.. Moment by moment, you do the best you can. And, that is the battle. You might not do great things. You might be just sorta be “there”. But, you give it yourself as best as you can. Even the smallest of us can change the course of history. That is inspiration! It is how you decide to do what YOU can do in the world…and it might be small…but nevertheless, history works in little ways…and these ways change the world. Don’t be a dick. You need not be! You can make your sphere better. This is a wyrd Spiritual wisdom….it is encouraging. It is greening a desert and it all depends upon your context.

I am learning so much from the Hobbits!

Oh, and humans can not die…we can not die!   Therefore, we can our best always!

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Life gifts many detours and forks happen/happenstance in the road.   Knowing the path to take is often a spaghetti junction where with eyes shut and wide open (at the same time), you traverse and land in most perfect places even if the detour took you off somewhere else for the time being.   Sometimes the detours are the most precious wanderings.

Since I have been a little girl, I dreamed of the under seen nature of gardens.  Not too many people get a glimpse of this space.   It is usually well hidden.   It is a shame really because it is a most beautiful and mystical place.   They say you should stop and smell the roses.  I think you should stop, get on all fours, crawl under the foliage and breath.   It is like the “forts” and caves of natural spaces and it is where you will meet the mythical beings of other ethereal spaces un-noticed or glimpsed upon by most two leggeds.

Our new land is in Masanamca just outside of Vilcabamba.   It called to Jim many years ago after the passing of his late wife Ruchel.   But, they had already secured a lot and the building process was to become a healing process of Jim when Ruchel flew to the other spaces.    At this time, I was also in healing from “wake-up to reality” experience of being in a relationship with a blue blooded psychopath who shook my word insane.   True to my nature though, I set up a camp in a remote valley and just started working and living outdoors.    Jim was building a house.  I was building a landscape.    We didn’t know each other then but our paths were similar in that we were healing from that thing called human suffering.

Many years later, my daughter joined me in Ecuador and played the match maker enlisting other youngens to join the force of Jim and I coming together.   So we did!   Youngens sometimes have spunked wisdom.

But our lifestyles and living situations were on opposite ends of the spectrum.   I had roughed the outdoors for 4 years.   I was also in the process of understanding the sacred lands I inhabited and the dysfunctions of the characters around me.    Like a night in shining armour, Jim gave me options and a key to release myself from the drama of people.  “Come back to the real world” was his offer.  Basically to live in a house and have the luxuries of modern living (electricity, piped water and a fridge and stove).  And, I realized that the little people of the land, the one’s who worked with their own two hands, had to leave the sacred valley.   This is another story, but a deep and profound one too.    So, I graciously accepted Jim’s key and left that space I called Magical Forest.

The Magical Forest started as a barren, dry, useless tract of land.   I did prove otherwise.  And with it came the dark energy that wanted it to end.    I had laboured crazily to transform and bring to life the correlation of man, plant, animal and insect creating together.  Leaving that space was a massive heart ache that went deep into the recesses of my Soul.    But, as I have learned from past experience, “bloom where you are planted” and I did so on Jim’s land.  But, I waited and held patience for the next step.    I longed.  I ached.  I practiced patience.    Jim and I talked a lot about the troubles of the world, the importance of reclaiming our names, Spirits and Souls.   We shared many talks on the “problems” we all face as a race that is no longer connected.    But, talking about the problems doesn’t change things.   You need solutions.  You need little people to take a step towards inner liberation.   You need to see something different.

We, Jim and I, are not rich meaning we don’t have a lot of “means” so important in the world to secure ourselves.   And,  we don’t “work” like the culture we came from for security, safety and slavery need.   But we dedicate ourselves to doing what we love and providing a little income to sustain ourselves.   In other words, we have choices daily and the freedom to either chill or work depending upon the times.  That in itself is work…and real work.   That, in itself, is a blessing beyond and something in my 50 years I am proud to “be” in.    It is freedom.   We started talking about the solutions.    We needed to move and find the pure source water and soils and really get to a point where we were free?   Where? How?

You know when you on the right track when the synchronicities land in your lap. Synchronicities are events connected to one another not by strict cause-and-effect, but by what in classical times were known as sympathies, by the belief that an acausal relationship exists between events on the inside and the outside of ourselves, a crosstalk between mind and matter—which is governed by a certain species of attraction.   Jung believed that synchronicities mirror deep psychological processes, carry messages the way dreams do, and take on meaning and provide guidance to the degree they correspond to emotional states and inner experiences.

We found the property. Actually, the property found us and its’ owner really wanted us to collaborate.   We were helped and assisted to gain title to the property by various peoples.  This is a group effort.  And, we are so grateful for the gifts and allowances that were offered.    We began the process and placed the property in Miss Kaya’s name (the grandchild).   And, we, together and as one plus one equals three are doing it.

What is “it”?  It is creating a space where, as human beings we can exist and enjoy the fruits of our labour.   “It” is working and co-creating with the Nature around us so that we all flourish.  “It” is a teaching site for others to meet their natural selves.  “It” is being fully human. Fully human?

I recently read ALL of Tom Robbins books like a mad women in thirst and hunger.  In “Fierce Invalids From Hot Climates” there is a philosophy in the book about what it means to be human.  It stuck with me, both for the simplicity and profundity it contains.  The idea is that the characters in the book believe that the human race is not all one species, but exists as a continuum between two poles: on one end we find the “Missing Links,” and on the other end we find “real” human beings.   Robbins  heavily weights towards the Missing Links, estimated to be about 95% of the population. While they appear human, Missing Links tend to be easy to manipulate, lack critical thinking, are highly reactive, and have little compassion.  Not surprisingly, they tend to be far less happy than ‘real’ humans.

Human beings, on the other hand, possess six distinct characteristics that allow them to express and experience their full potential.

These are the six qualities that make us fully human: 

1. Humour:  The ability to laugh—to find life funny and entertaining—is key. Robbins’ characters focus a lot on this particular trait, believing it to be possibly the most important of the six. I agree. If you’re not laughing, you’ve missed the point of this existence.

2. Imagination Sadly, we all have the capacity for great imagination and creativity but our goofy society tends to educate it out of us fairly early on. Our human awareness, which also gives us the capacity for abstract thought, is our greatest gift, and yet so few of us ever fully use this trait.

3. Eroticism Other than bonobos and dolphins, we’re the only species on the planet fond of copulating just for copulation’s sake. Sex—the thought, craving, and experience of it—is an essential part of being human.

Of course this characteristic is on a spectrum, like the others. Not everyone is going to have the same intense experience of sexuality, but for it to be there (and cultivated, even) is hugely important. It is nothing to be ashamed of, but is rather a source of power and insight.

4. Spirituality Robbins doesn’t say that we all need religion or dogma, he argues that a sense of spirituality—a belief and faith in something bigger than our existence—is key. Such awareness is also a wonderful effect of our conscious mind, separating us from the animals with whom we share the planet, and allowing us to live without fear, should we choose.

5. Rebelliousness Tell a human being not to do something, and you’re guaranteed they’re going to do it just because it’s forbidden. But our rebelliousness is not something to be trained out of us so that we all fall in line behind each other like good Missing Links. It’s a symptom of self expression and exploration.

6. Beauty Human beings are able to perceive beauty in the way that one may perceive the perfection of the universe. We are beauty because we are a part of it, though are also capable of creating and experiencing beauty in millions of different forms. This idea relates to our individual style and appreciation of beautiful things, so often usurped by the impulse to fit in to cultural norms.

And so, that is what I think we are doing.   We are creating a space where humour, imagination, erotism, Spirituality, rebelliousness and beauty are encouraged, witnessed, practiced and honoured.

I call it Magical Forest Two.   And, I am also off on a tangent of discovery of JRR Tolkien whose very good friend C.S. Lewis was a personal study as a young teenaged.    You will find the spaces of the middle earth, the shire, the elven forests and the 9 rings of man being played out.  Have I lost it?  YOU bet I HAVE NOT!   I got this more than anything else in my entire life.   Call me crazy!    We will have the last laugh!

So, off we go…now with the legal deed in hand….title is ours and we are doing “it”!

From Destruction Into Creation

From Destruction Into Creation

The road of life is weaves in ebbs and flows of creation and destruction.  I take and honour both with a sense of awe.   Creation exists because destruction exists.  Without the latter, we are not given a gift of knowing and offered a deeper wisdom to forge the destiny of fulfilling our purpose.

Generally, I am a forge ahead girl.  Give me a task that has a sense of purpose, and I will do it and do it well.   I adore creation and on the nights I sleep the deepest are the days I get things done.    That is my signal to a creative day and a job well done.  When I left Magical Forest One in 2016, it was a conscious choice to withdraw from that creation for many reasons. The official dialogue was “I met a man”.  But the man was only one a catalyst on a long list of reasons for a changing of the guards…without and within.   It was time to slow down.  It was time to take stock and re think the purpose of the earth work.   It was time to say “no” to many things in my circle.  It was time to stop.

During the past two years after leaving Magical Forest Two, I have been met with many challenges arising out of the catalytic explosive spark that destroys for creation.  I have held onto an sadness that rose as an anger towards the true story for me leaving that space. And, this was a good thing the creation of Magical Forest rose from that sadness.  I needed to admit my own anger.

And, in the past two years, many difficult and yet amazing things have happened.   The continuation of my ancestral line set a new leaf in Miss Kaya Lluvia who was born into our crazy world in a most precious birth.  At the same time, as a Mother, I have been experiencing another level of “let go” that ALL mothers experience with their children and this never ends even after the “children” become adults.    I’ve fell very ill a few times feeling the weight of life in my physical, emotional and psychological body.   At times I wondered if my body was giving up and questioned my sanity.   I needed to stop.   I was gifted with a live/dry blood microscope that sparked a renewed vigour from my past life as a healer. As fast as it came, the microscope was taken away leaving me questioning my views of who I allowed into my friendship circle. But the moment it left, true friends gathered to put a microscope back into my circle.   I gave my hands to the lands around me… to bloom where I was planted and felt exhausted and almost uninterested.  But, the space around grew in the toil and instructed me to catalogue and deepen a friendship with over 90 medicinal herbs.  So, I worked hard to record, create alchemic tinctures and lay a foundation of education for medicines from garden. (www.seedsofwellness.life)  My partner and I who are a powerhouse couple, began a process of mirroring our stuck-ness and areas manufactured from a culture of manipulation.   We both have that stubborn streak so the process of removing the callouses was raw and painful at times.

All the above experiences were not easy each blasting a destruction energy that we generally try to avoid, resist and tuck away.  I charged into each encounter and realized that at the age of 50, I have a lot of work to do…inner work.   The creative potential required I work at this and this work is important to what is coming next…..and then the next came….

Today, with my partner, the Magical Forest Two is now a reality.   Magical Forest One morphed from a experience of utter change in my life.  In 2011 after a 21 year broken marriage, I left, entirely, everything I knew and all that I thought I knew.   I found myself living in tent in a remote valley of Southern Ecuador and just working the soil feeling a sense of “what the hell is going on?”.   It was from the ashes I rose and created.    There was not much else I could go.   It just grew and it grew because I just started the work the land.   There were many flaws and inside the flaws many things were gifted.   It was hard work and, in many ways, it left me exhausted.  I often felt like I was on the verge of something so important, but I was tired.   That was not the place or the space.  It was meant only as a teaching ground.   And, the dynamics of the characters of the valley Magical Forest one existed was a microcosm of dysfunctions of the world affairs.  Those in that valley who worked the land with our hands and without money all left.   Perhaps this is a reality of our times?

So, the past two years have been a down-time, inner work time, precious painful time…a time of allowing the destructive flow be to let go of that which won’t serve the greater good.   And, that is why Magical Forest Two is rising .. the seed has cracked the concrete and is sprouted.

My mind and hearts eyes are clear this time.   There is no doing without knowing where this is going.   I have a great partner with me whose talents and capabilities perfectly jigsaw that which I am not good with and I match reciprocally.   At this point, we are alone in this creation.   And, that is perfect.   We both desired to gather with others and we both realize the future is not ours to predict.  Our intimacy at this point is with the land is this is the first friendship to cultivate.   Our need for circle is complete.

I’ve spent some time sitting with the new land and feeling it.   My hands have started the process of labouring and they feel it and it feels so good.  It is a very, very good foundation.  The land is in Kaya’s Lluvia name paying forward all our labour and efforts. Lluvia means rain…so we work the space for the waters first.    And, we choose to NOT let the systems we live in have power over our beings.    We knew this land would be ours for a long time, but we did not work it until a sense of security was in place.   The land waited and helped us with the process as Spirit provided gifts and offerings from supportive friends to make this happen.

I am amazed really.  i am in wonder deeply
I am grateful for the destruction of all that which does not work
I am humbled by life guiding us to remember who we are
I am in love with my circle of friendship and, most importantly, my partner.
I am not perfect
I am still learning
I give my hands, my Spirit and my being to the new land of Magical Forest Two
I kiss the ground knowing it embraces me back
I feel hallowed…and a sense of resurection
This is beautification in creation.

Let Magical Forest Two begin!!!!

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  2. Be  free from authority by an awakening interest and enquiry into your own mind, body and soul so that you know the direction to take and the answers to the questions you ask
  3. Realize and be aware of the conditions which will call upon you to stand on your own feet and in the circle of friends and rely on your soul to lead.  This means we do not rely on other humans but even the smallest can be a beloved teacher, friend and master of wisdom.

This is a self study. In the act of the study, there are forces that will assist as they are watching, waiting.   It causes you to take your eyes off yourself and revitalizes the quest to serve humanity.   It is fixing the eyes upon the vision.   It is guarding the tongue, minding the mind and forward movement in intelligence.   It is joining all that is good so that the current dangers are relieved.     All of us are needed…even the least of us.   It is a deep unfaltering love.  It is exoteric and esoteric.

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